i generally feel healthy, strong and vital as long as i don’t eat certain foods that i have found deplete me. yet, since the beginning of the shutdown, even though i’ve miraculously kept from using food to manage my feelings, i have been experiencing … [Read more...] about truth, who does this belong to? am i energetically taking on other people’s feelings and symptoms in the pandemic?
spirit & personal
hallelujah anyway
in the episcopal church in which i was christianed, raised and confirmed, we weren't allowed to say hallelujah during lent. so it was a big deal to say it on easter sunday. i loved singing hallelujah at the top of my lungs to praise the risen lord … [Read more...] about hallelujah anyway
not knowing my future on this holy in between day
this week alone multiple events i was looking forward to attending months from now got cancelled. in some cases the decisions absolutely had to be made this week due to refund deadlines or other financial considerations. in other cases, it seemed … [Read more...] about not knowing my future on this holy in between day
the shiksa pandemic passover
tonight is the second night of the shiksa pandemic passover. to remind yourself what a shiksa is (hint: me) and why i make my attempts at these holidays, see my post: the shiksa hanukkah. if ever a time called for a re-telling of the passover story, … [Read more...] about the shiksa pandemic passover
ok, i’ve done my part. time to get back to life, right?
suddenly the people around me, friends, neighbors, clients, and i, are signaling that they’re basically done with sheltering in place and ready to get back to normal. the sentiment is this, "they said 2 weeks was important. i did two weeks. i didn’t … [Read more...] about ok, i’ve done my part. time to get back to life, right?
could lowering our defenses help us stay well physically and mentally?
in multiple articles, the science is clear. what often kills people infected with covid-19 is not a failure of the immune system to fight off the invading disease, it is an over-production of immune function. the atlantic’s ed yong (british science … [Read more...] about could lowering our defenses help us stay well physically and mentally?
which feelings am I allowed to have in the pandemic?
if you’re anything like me, you’re alternately angry, sad or afraid during the shutdown. so is everyone, so so what? in a weekly spiritual support group that i’ve attended for years we tell each other what is going on in our lives. some days things … [Read more...] about which feelings am I allowed to have in the pandemic?
shutdown stage five:Â acceptance (allowance)
i live in sacramento where we have been in a locally ordered countywide shut down since midnight on wednesday march 18th. on march 19th, 20th, 22nd and 23rd i covered the first four stages of shutdown: denial, anger, bargaining & depression (see … [Read more...] about shutdown stage five: acceptance (allowance)
shutdown stage four:Â depression
i live in sacramento where we have been in a locally ordered countywide shut down since midnight on wednesday march 18th. on march 19th, 20th and 22nd i covered the first three stages of shutdown: denial, anger & bargaining (see those posts). … [Read more...] about shutdown stage four: depression
shutdown stage three:Â bargaining
i live in sacramento where we have been in a locally ordered countywide shut down since midnight on wednesday march 18th. on march 19th and 20th (see those posts) i covered the first two stages of shutdown: denial and anger. none of this is linear, … [Read more...] about shutdown stage three: bargaining
shutdown stage two:Â anger
as we saw in my post on march 19th, i find myself going in and out of various stages with this shut-down. stage two is anger.  anger at making such a big deal. at first i was angry that people were making such a big deal out of something that … [Read more...] about shutdown stage two: anger
Shutdown stage one: denial
as i mentioned in my post of march 13, 2020 below, i have noticed myself evolving over the course of the pandemic. then recently i noticed that others were too and that different people are on different stages. what is unique to this situation is … [Read more...] about Shutdown stage one: denial