Lately, I’ve been perseverating over the amount of the United States federal budget that goes to military, Homeland Security, and related expenses versus health care, housing, food, and reversing climate change so that we can actually continue to live on this earth.
When I look at this chart, for example, I can see that the nation I live in spent over half a trillion dollars last year on military, building and buying weapons and bombs and equipment and spent only a fraction of what it has on what people most talk about wanting and needing.
And, since I believe that everything that is actually showing up in the world reflects either our collective consciousness or my individual consciousness, I began to wonder:
- Where am I wealthy beyond measure?
- But spending most of my energy and time and money defending?
- All the while I am feeling a sense of lack and poverty around my health, my housing, and my security?
- Moreover, where am I telling myself a story that I’m under attack and need to defend?
- When I am actually the one doing the attacking?
- Or where am I creating a need to stockpile energy, time, and money for defense?
- So that I won’t have to own up to and take responsibility for my choices that have made me insecure?
And everything that is times a gazillion, am I willing to destroy and uncreate it all right now?
Also, where am I fighting with myself over the limited time and energy left over for the rest of my life after spending most of my energy defending?
What could I do with that time and energy now that I realize it is unlimited?
…particularly if I lay down my arms and surrender to my good?
If you see, as I do about me, that I am actually in a delusional state, certain that I am being attacked so I need to defend myself, perhaps you can join me in laying down arms, ceasing defending against anything or anyone. Knowing that most of the attacks are in my mind. I am safe, abundant, and well right now. I can spend my time and energy on what brings me security and joy, not fighting, preparing to fight or defend.